Remembering Our Sweet Angel Peanut

Peanut, we think about you often and miss you so very much. Your short 10 weeks with us was not without meaning. Thank you for watching over us and over Ava when she was just hanging on. We don't know what we would have done if we lost her too. You are always in our hearts angel baby.

So Hot!

So hot out today, so we didn't do anything. Stayed inside, Logan did some "school work" did some connect the dots, tracing, and cutting. He is excited to go to big boy school next month! I am packing up our stuff so we can leave early tomorrow to head up to Lake Geneva to Timber Ridge water park resort with my Mom and siblings and I am beat.

Emotionally draining day today and I am sure tomorrow will be the same, but I keep thinking about the good that has come out of the bad.

"We acquire the strength we have overcome."~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Ava Loves To Climb....Great.

Ava has become quite the climber lately. She stands on toys and does whatever she can to get on the couch and then careens herself on to the recliner chair from there. We also have a little rocking chair in the living room that is Logan's (Ava has one also, but it's in their room and she uses that one to climb onto brother's bed, which she thinks is the greatest place on earth) and she now loves to climb up on there and stand and start rocking...yea gives me a heart attack, but she is laughing like crazy when she does it. She also will climb up there and just sit and "watch" tv. She is such a little lady these days gotta love it!

What Happened To My Good Sleeper? & Other Ramblings...

I know she is just going through some developmental milestone thingy, but damn she is breaking my heart with all that crying upstairs. It's not like a regular cry either, it's a frantic I am scared or something cry. I am thinking separation anxiety is kicking into high gear now and it's weird that she only does it at bedtime. Once she settles down though she will stay up for hours just playing in her crib and then get fussy again. I don't know, Matt says Logan did the same thing, but I don't remember, I guess I should have written down these things, good thing I have a blog now...

No skating today for me, my coach is out of town and probably for the best, my legs and hips are all tired from being in the pool with Logan today.

Glad we have some fun plans on Friday though to head up to Lake Geneva and go to the water park hotel up there with my mom and siblings. Friday is the day we said goodbye to Peanut two years ago, so hopefully that will keep the day fun. Thursday however is the anniversary of my horrible night in the ER, I'll never forget that day, not only the day we fond out about Peanut, but the day that my beloved doctor suffered a stroke, the day I was basically turned away from his covering OB even though I was having problems that day and then of course the worst moment of my life that night.

Seriously the way I was treated that day is one of my major motivators or I guess final deciders to want to start a nursing career. If I can make that terrible situation a little easier for another women, that I will be happy, the way I was treated and jerked around was just not right.

And Here We Go!

I called the college today to inquire about the certified nursing assistant program to see when I need to start the admission process if I wanted to do the January weekend program (they offer a day course which is 10 weeks and then the weekend or night course both run 16 weeks, the night course doesn't count towards the admission requirement for their LPN/RN program though, so since I am pretty sure I will be going on I can't do the night program) (and by weekend they mean Friday nights, all day Saturday, and Monday nights) and she said that yes it's limited enrollment and it's first come first serve (which was kinda a relief I was worried it was ranked with GPA and Test scores) so I have a testing day of Aug 30th where I will take the admissions tests for the program. She said it was simple reading and math, so I better brush up on my Math since it is most defiantly not my strong suit, I did pretty good in college math but that was statistics for psychology, so it's been a good long time since I have done other areas of Math. Luckily I have a smarty pants for a hubby and he can help me review. Anyway I am so excited and nervous I just want this testing done with, that would really be the only obstacle in my way to getting admitted into the program. Fingers crossed!

Happy 10 Months Ms. Ava!

She's in double digits! Can't believe I have a big 10 month old already!

Here is my 10 month old munching on some bread (ahh to be 10 months old and not have to worry about carbs...)

Home Safe & Sound!

My Mom is back from Romania safe and sound! She had a great mission trip and I can't wait to hear all about it and see her pictures! She has jet leg pretty bad right now, I remember coming home from Germany when I studied aboard their during my January term, Junior year of college, and it taking a lot more time to get back on schedule then it did when I had to adjust to Germany time, of course I was gone for a month so it was really hard getting back to normal. Hopefully she will be feeling better soon because she has a grandson who is itching to sleep over! Glad your home Mom!